God loved you friend just as much before you were saved as he does now that you are saved. “God demonstrates his own love for us in that while we were still sinners Christ died for us” Romans 5:8 –If this were not true than why on earth would he die for those he did not love? John 3:16 says “For God so loved the world that he gave his only son, that whomsoever will believe in him will not perish but have eternal life. — and if you don’t yet know God, it is in His heart to pursue you and seek you out wherever you are at, You do nothing to initiate this but God looks down and sees the worth he put on your life and sees it as redeemable no matter what you have done or who you are in the present. God loves you where your at and demostrates through his own son’s death he wants you. He will not force this on anyone, however whoever does accept this and take it to heart can be completely saved, forgiven totally, and given a new nature.